self-image: hands

6:17am winter in perth

lately some stuff has been on my mind. mostly to do with self-image and body confidence. and i thought i was fine with the way my body was.

but recently i've had some health issues which has made me sit back and evaluate what i need to change.  

and there have been some things that have really stood out to me. one example is the other day i went to the bathroom at work, looked in the mirror, i was fine and my face was super cute. 3 hours later, i kid you not, i looked 10kgs heavier and my facial arrangement did not appease me.

and recently i've been trying to exercise every day and i thought my wrists and fingers were getting thinner. i haven't been for a while, and i swear my wrists and fingers are fatter than they were a week ago. as a pianist, i tend to look at my hand a lot. (please read this comment for reference.) 

my right hand has a fresh sore on it that moment. my left has a ring that my boyfriend got me for my birthday and as proof that he thinks that our relationship will last the time. (the ring pictured is not the one, i unfortunately don't have a picture of it as of yet.)

in general, my fingers are short and stubby and technically not 'piano fingers' but i say you do you, and these fingers have been playing piano for pretty much my whole life.

i tend to keep my nails short, force of habit more than anything. when i was playing team sports your nails could not be over a certain length as to minimise the amount of accidents on the field. they rarely see any colour as my chosen place of employment contains a lot of fixtures and i'm not incredibly careful with where i place my hands and end up scratching my nail polish off. also i can be quite lazy and haven't made time to paint the poor things.

the fingers on my left hand are slightly callused, especially the pointer and middle finger. years of playing violin and various other stringed instruments will do that to you. 

the fingers on my right hand are normal. at the moment they are a bit dry but times change, and one day i will get around to moisturising those beauties.

life will be alright in the morning.

xx