2013 goals update

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GET HEALTHY//
This goal has three subtitles because it's like a three part problem/solution.
LOSE WEIGHT//
Guys, I have lost at least 6kgs in the past 6 months. Hot diggity dog, it feels great. :)
EXERCISE MORE// 
This is so not happening. Like, I'm not kidding. It's just too cold outside.
EAT LESS//
And this one is happening in a rounabout way. As in, I'm eating less sugary, fatty foods, but eating more good, healthy food. (homegrown cabbage tastes llike cauliflower with a hint of mustard, just thought you should know.

GROW CLOSER TO GOD//
This is happening in the strangest way possible. I'm reading the Torah at the moment (that is, Genesis, Exodus, Leviticus, Numbers, and Deutoronomy) and learning more about what I can do to become who God wants me to be.

KEEP MYSELF/ROOM CLEAN//
Room is clean! This room clean goal has been quite easy to keep because there are mice in the house and I don't want mouse dropping all over my clothes, etc. 
The other part of this goal is not as easy. I have pretty bad personal hygiene, and just recently, had to resort to writing down when I last had a shower. But now that that's sorted out I can kinda keep plodding along.

SAVE//
It's really easy to save on the farm. Like, seriously, I only spend money on things I really need. (toiletries, etc.) And even then sometimes I don't have to pay for some of my stuff. It's part of my pay! HUZZAH! But I did get 2 new dresses the other day... For $9.98 each, one was originally $59, and the other $49. 

GET MORE HEALING//
I've changed this goal, because I've realized I don't have a problem with self-confidence but I have a problem. I'm so emotionally scarred so I need some inner healing. 

PS. Doing the Blimey Cow Photo-a-Day challenge 

I'm Getting Married!

When I came to Victoria, I wasn't expecting anything crazy to happen. And I certainly didn't expect that my whole view on life to do a complete 180!

In the past 6 months I've learned more about being an intregal part of home life than I ever thought possible.

Now onto the title of this post. I'm getting married, but not for a few years yet. You see, I had this grand plan in my mind. I would go to uni, become a teacher, and then after a couple of years of teaching, I would get married and have children. Not any more though. My whole view on womanhood has been completely turned on its head...

More on this topic in another post, this could turn into a book...

sister to a dead boy

outfit || dress: target || cardigan: rockmans || tights: big w ||

I was going to shut this here blog down for the winter... But for some reason I decided against it... But I don't even know what to say anymore.

I wrote this in my journal the other night

"normality. is that too much to ask for? all i want is some sense of normal, a feeling of belonging. a promise spoken, whispered words in my ear, 'you belong here, you are wanted.' sometimes it gets hard to see where i am, what i'm doing.

who am i?

i am seventeen years old, a year twelve student who moved out of home at the start of the year. i am a nanny, a governess, and a helper. i am the third daughter out of four, the fourth child out of five. sister to a dead boy. i moved out of home without recieving my adult blessing. 

i am nostalgia, the voice in your head,  saying, life has to be better than this. i am the silent cry. the lone wolf. the one who always lends a hand even though i need help, as well. a shut book, a closed case. woeful eyes, quavering smile.

but i am also courage. i am beauty. the night sky. the budding flower.  the tears of laughter and joy. the sound of praise and adoration. the cry of a newborn. i am protected. i am wanted, and i belong where God has placed me. i am beloved."

~I BELONG~

ps. this post is as much for me as it is for you

Lake Hindmarsh

There's this lake, about 3hrs from where I live. It's big, and not very wet (at the moment)

Let me back up a little, about a month ago everyone got invited to camping on the Queen's Birthday Weekend. (June 8-10) The Naylors politley declined for they had family coming to visit, and I said no because I needed a lift. Well, on the Tuesday before the long weekend I got a call from Lydia (who invited us), inviting me to go camping with them because they now had an extra seat. So I thought about it, and on Wednesday I decided I would go. Now, this campsite had no shower, and only a drop dunny. (Australian for bush toilet) I, the undersigned, hate bush camping. And 4 wheel driving (bush bashing) and motorbikes. Let me tell you, the weekend was all about bushin' it. 

The weekend was great, and I got to drive! I met a few people my own age, and learnt how cold it has to be before your body goes into "don't want to do anything" mode.

Sarah

ps. big news coming soon!

pps. this post is perf...

Bunbury

The last weekend I was at home, we decided to go to Bunbury, and surrounding areas. It was a bit spontaneuous and rushed, but we got out the caravan and drove there.

Over the next few weeks, I’ll relay what we did there (and how cold it was!) Hope you enjoy!

Update

Just a quick update.
I'm back in Vic on the farm and really loving it. I have a few posts writing up and something brewing in a corner of my minds :)

18 before 18 {a bucket list}

1. Make an article of clothing by myself
2. Make a quilt
3. Learn how to embroider
4. Make a flower crown
5. Learn how to play the guitar
6. Write a book
7. Publish said book (see #6)
8. Have a tea party
9. Go to the snow
10. Record a song, or two, or more
11. Release an EP, and/or single (see #10)
12. Make a music video (see #10 & #11)
13. Buy a pair of TOMS shoes
14. Get driver's licence
15. Go to Canberra (Australia's capital city)
16. Go to a blogger event
17. Create a recipe book
18. Get another piercing (either nose, or seconds)